Well what a relief.. My project is done.. Im finished writing about bloody sacrifice and Mayan myth till the final exam.
Now seeing as me and my partner have known what we were going to do since september and the due date is tomorow.. Why the hell have we waited so bloody long.. Probable because we let life in the way and then all the books we needed were out and it was to late to get others in. So yeah.. Life.. I work full time and I also go to school full time.. which doesnt leave much time. Though I do have Iaido on wednseday nights... My love life.. ahahahahaha .. thats funny .. some how love really has nothing to do with it.
Have you ever had your significant other call you up in the middle of the night to tell you how he or she is falling for you and then dump you the next day so they can date someoneesle that night..? Well thats what happened to me on september the second of this year.. great timming to because It was my best friends birthday and see was heading away to university again the very next day.. So anyways.. yeah I was somewhat upset and desturbed by this. So I Did my damnedest to Hate him.. Plotted horrible emarassing revenge and yeah... Though we still met for lunch every tuesday..kinda odd I know. So about 6weeks of this and I got tired of being angery all the time.. I would try to be nice but he could set me off. Off course his cowardly lieing and what not.. well if anything I hate being lied to. At the begining of the month she dumped him.. and .. Well I kinda felt sorry for him.. Again, though how we met will be another story. So yeah.. He was all like the dumbest thing I did was dump you for her and stuff.. Yeah.. the next night I went over to watch a movie with him.. I really should have left when It got beyond watching a movie.. But it was nice... stupid but nice.. and It had been a few weeks since I had a "friend" over. Yeah.. Since then.. I have spent an awful lot of time with him. Im not so sure this is a good Idea. Its funny cause like middle of last week I think my aunt was telling me that he was asking her what his chances of getting me back were.. Well . Its funny because then like the other day I got my aunt to ask him how he was doing in getting me back.. Aparently all he said was shes great and told my aunt how I was going over for the night.. The reason why I pulled this somewhat immature move is because well .. I dont actually know where I stand with him.. Are we dating because well I dont know...I know we're not together.. but have I become just a lay? I dont know I cant really bring myself to ask.. And Its so hard to get a straight answer out of him anyways... I was so tempted to let him know last night that two of my other "friends" called.. and that I could have been very well spending my night with someone else.. But he was kinda sick and that might have been mean. I really dont know what im doing with im. .. I think I care to much just to be a bedbuddy. ARGH.. I just dont know....
Hell after the way he screwed me around I shouldnt care at all.. but I do.. I think I may be a dumbass.. hmmm.. yeah.. I just dont think I can be causual...
So if your reading this.. what do you think..???

Annette