On monday night after work ..I went over to jeff's. It was ok.. he was chatting with Amelia the chick he broke up with me to date.. she was wanting to come and get her stuff... After they fininshed chatting he said to me that Amelia is being cynical.. and thinks that he just hopped in to bed with another woman after she left..I was like I wonder where she would get that idea... and then he said like six hours and looked at me... he looked mighty proud of himself... I wasnt really into kissing back at that point.. I mean way to remind me of how you screwed me over you S.O.B.. Some times I really dont like him.. he also drew his sword at me in a mocking sort of manner.. I was quite offended.. I almost left.. I probably should have... Why do I even bother with him..
Perhaps its days like tuesday... we woke up went to class had a nice lunch, and after the afternoon classes we looked around the mall, went for dinner and saw Master and Commander, which was a cool movie.. After I stopped by my place to get my stuff.. I went back to his place... And was kinda stripped at the door.. It was nice.. a nice day.. really...
At dinner one of his friends was our waitress.. she was nice... I liked her.. umm.. yeah thats really all I can say about that..
I wish there was some way of figuring out If I mean anything to him. Or if im just a lay... I may be obsessing but I like my neat categories.. and he can be so confusing at times.. If Im just a lay I shouldnt let myself care.. I also shouldnt be spending so much time or even the night with him.. I just dont really want to leave either.
Today was the walk of shame though.. He had class earlyer than me so instead of going home and catching a quick nap before school myself.. I stayed at his place till I had to leave and he left his keys with me. Well when your probably just a fling..there is not much more embarrassing then haveing to return something like keys infront of the friends... He was sitting at the table with them... I was uncomfortable so I was like here you are and left.. I dont think I said hi..
OH.. our presentation went well Alysia... Made such a wonderful web page that wowed everyone.. to bad our instructor will not be swayed by the pretty format and glossy technology.. Should have started earlyer all the stuff we needed was gone and none of my holds came in ontime... We were somewhat indecicive.. though we knew we kinda went back and forth between a few things.. to many ideas and not enough concrete... Oh.. Alysia told me that someone really liked my comment on the bird of this creations world tree compaired to the last creations bird.. that was nice.. nothing like people enjoying your snarkyness...
Another thing what is with asking what you want or what you want for christmas.. sure stuff is nice.. but if Im hanging out with you its probably because I enjoy your company.. and really thats enough for me.. Really!. Though If your related to me well then I may list off some stuff I need.. hehehe.. Family.. Not that I expect anything but they're more likely to complain about me or annoy me otherwise..
so... I should just run away and not talk to Jeff any more.. It would make my life some what simpler because I would be less confused about whats going on..I would also procrastinate less.. and I would be warmer.. he's a blanket hog and his apartment is cold... though last night was nice because we had 2 blankets and the heat was on...comfy stuff...
AND YES... I know I could say something to Jeff about my thoughts but that could make things akward or something...
Until then...
Annette